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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 0:24:20 GMT -5
Crucible looked at Tails.
"That's where every Beowulf starts, not knowing if he has the strength to overcome his beast. But the strength will come, Tails. Maybe not right away. But when the time comes you will find you have the strength, after all." Crucible's head tipped to the side slightly and then he turned to fully face Tails.
"Do you want to know something that no one else knows about my Grendel?" he asked in a soft voice.
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Post by flameh on Jan 23, 2013 0:39:43 GMT -5
"Its been so long though, it doesn't seem like I'll ever have the strength" Tails said. He wished he could be as strong as Daman, and face his Grendel, but he wasn't.
"What is it?" Tails asked curiously. He wanted to know what his friend was going to say next. He also wanted to know a bit more about his past.
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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 0:50:17 GMT -5
Crucible leaned back and sighed.
"It's not something I like to talk about. For a long time I worked at forgetting, shutting down my emotions to deal with the pain. I've always been afraid to face what happened, you know? It's a pretty big obstacle."
The boy took a deep breath and said, quietly, "My brother turned my family into the Hunters. He had the power to make people do what he wanted, so... so he made me sit and watch as the Hunters killed my parents... and my sister," Crucible murmured. It was the first time he had ever spoken of the event, and emotion threatened to choke him. For once he didn't stop it. He let himself sound and look like what he was--a fourteen-year-old boy who had lost his family tragically at the hands of his own brother.
"I have nightmares about it. I shut out all of the emotions I feel just to stop them from coming back--the memories. That's my Grendel. And believe me... it's a frightening one to face." Crucible swallowed and stared down at his feet. He hated talking about this. But he knew that being open with Tails could encourage his friend. And he wanted to do that. He wanted to encourage Tails. To let him know that other people struggled with the same problems, the same weaknesses. He wanted to give his friend hope. Even if he didn't have any for himself.
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Post by flameh on Jan 23, 2013 0:57:31 GMT -5
Tails felt his heart break for his friend. He couldn't imagine being forced to watch his family get killed. He understood Crucible's need to bury his emotions though, Tails did the same thing. He buried the feelings of fear and pain that never left. They always linger ready to break free.
Tails took a deep breath before standing up. He walked over to his friend and briefly wrapped his arms around him in a hug. He stepped back and looked up at his friend. "I know what its like to hide feelings away, I do it all the time" he said. "Its easier to bury the pain and the fear, then to always have it out in the open" he added.
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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 1:01:51 GMT -5
Crucible felt Tails' arms wrap around his small frame and sighed. It had been years since anyone had shown him a gesture of kindness, and it made him feel... better than he had in quite some time. Probably since his parents' death. Crucible smiled weakly at Tails, his expression a little stiff but still emotive enough to look... almost normal.
"Yeah. Feeling those emotions, even the good ones... they can bring back so many memories you'd sooner forget, can't they?" He shook his head and sighed.
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Post by flameh on Jan 23, 2013 1:05:51 GMT -5
Tails nodded. "Yeah they can" he replied. "I don't have much attached to happy emotions though, just negative ones" he said. "The reason I was shaking when you came in was because the girl touched me" he explained "and she was cold. It felt like the knife my 'father' tried to kill me with."
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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 12:42:57 GMT -5
Crucible listened and then nodded.
"I can get how that would be scary," he murmured. He looked at Tails closely. "You know, Tails... you're safe now. You can trust the people here. I know that it's hard to do that after what you've been through. Believe me, I know it can be hard to trust people. But there's really nothing to be afraid of here. If you let yourself believe that, maybe that will help you."
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Post by flameh on Jan 23, 2013 14:27:22 GMT -5
Tails just shook his head. He already knew he would never be completely comfortable around others. "They all think I'm some kind of freak" he said "I've heard them talking." "I just mess everything up. I keep upsetting Daman" he added.
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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 22:51:20 GMT -5
Crucible tipped his head to the side.
"There are always the mutants who haven't been through much and can't understand. But all the best mutants will accept you the way you are. And the rest of them... well, their opinions don't matter much."
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Post by flameh on Jan 23, 2013 23:03:13 GMT -5
Tails smiled slightly at Crucible's words. Maybe he could become more comfortable one day, Crucible seems to think he can. "I don't know how I'm supposed to beat this" he confessed "I've been trying but it took me so long to trust or talk to anyone other than Daman. Now I have you and Daman."
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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 23:10:16 GMT -5
Considering this, Crucible made a thoughtful noise and tipped his head back.
"Well, I guess what you need to figure out first is... what made you trust Daman, or me, in the first place? What made you open up, when you seem to be unable to open up to anyone else? If you find that out, maybe you can look for that quality that drew you to your friends in others. It's a start."
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Post by flameh on Jan 23, 2013 23:17:28 GMT -5
"Well I trusted Daman because he saved me. I would've died if he hadn't found me" Tails said. "And you helped me, you made me feel better" he explained "and you seemed different, like me." He wasn't sure how he was supposed to find other mutants, if he hated to be around them.
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Post by Shadow on Jan 23, 2013 23:29:15 GMT -5
"Well, it seems that you like to trust mutants who help you. Who are willing to help you. And mutants who have been through rough times like you." Crucible sat up straighter on his ledge.
"There are lots of mutants like that. Maybe if you could talk to some at a safe distance, not feel pressured or anything, it would help you get to know them and make more friends. You never know. Everyone has a story. Some people's are just nicer than others."
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Post by flameh on Jan 24, 2013 10:24:54 GMT -5
Tails shook his head, If only it were that easy he thought to himself. "There isn't a safe distance for me, that people could still hear me at" he said. He felt crowded easily and was soft spoken. "Plus I have Daman and you" he said "thats more friends than I ever expected to have."
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Post by Shadow on Jan 24, 2013 11:44:43 GMT -5
Crucible tipped his head to one side and considered Tails.
"Well," he said slowly. "What about a wall? Would that make you feel safe?" He swung his leg back and forth rhythmically, trying to think of ideas.
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